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The peacock is a very splendid bird; its colors are most rich and beautiful. The feathers of the tail are often more than a yard long, and when they are spread out in the sunlight, like a great fan, nothing can be more elegant. Yet with all its beauty I do not believe you could ever love a peacock, as you love a lamb or a dove. It seems selfish and vain, and there is nothing lovely about it-its voice is very harsh and disagreeable. There are some people who, like the peacock, are called handsome or beautiful, but whose hearts are not pure and lovely in the sight of God. "Beauty," in itself, "is vain;" but "the ornament of a meek and quiet spirit is in the sight of God of great price."
That said, you would probably be best served with a combination of therapies. Group and individual counseling from an addictions specialist like a psychologist are helpful. As are support groups. But to get to the underlying psycho-emotional reasons you use, it’s really helpful to work with a professional. Also, check out SMART Recovery. They have a self-help program that you might be able to follow, given that you seem like a self-starter. And ASK around. Ask your family physician, a social worker, a spiritual or religious leader you trust, etc. about drug addiction resources in your area. When the willingness is there, doors open.